The Complex Trauma Chronicles

Welcome guys, gals, and non-binary pals to The Complex Trauma Chronicles.

I am a 25 year-old female and have recently started therapy for the fourth time in my life. Every single time I’ve gone to therapy before this, there was always a specific reason; my parents divorce, rape, and uncontrollable mood swings. I walked in with a goal in mind and was able to track progress or pass a specific requirement for myself. This time is different. This time, I walked (or rather called ’cause Rona) in with no structure and no end goal.

I’ve found that I have experienced so many things that I thought were simply unexplainable, but the reality is that I was never equipped with the knowledge or verbiage of what was happening to me.

Here’s a small list of things that I’ve experienced along with terms that I am learning:
Complex Trauma
Sexual Assault
Domestic Abuse
Childhood Abuse
Disassociation
Depersonalization
Repressed Memories

I have learned to talk about some of my trauma very openly, but some of it, I have hid. I am still trying my best to understand the memories I am digging up. I am still trying hard to feel emotions and validate my existence.

I invite you to join me on this journey. Read my deepest and darkest secrets. Follow me as I explore these lost parts of my mind. Learn and grow with me.

Note: I am not a writer, but I am looking for coping mechanisms. I’m afraid to speak up about these experiences, but I feel like I may explode if I don’t share them.